Whatever it is you do, if you do your best, you should be proud. I've never believed that a person needs to have a fancy career or doctorate level education to be a great person and contributing member of society. If a person brightens the world, they are a success in my eyes. I think what we are responsible for achieving in this world is happiness. I'm really big on always moving forward and growing. Recently, I have lost track of what direction is forward and have found myself on a path towards pride without happiness.
Forward movement should be about happiness, not employment success. If employment brings a person happiness, or is needed to raise capitol to pay for what makes a person happy, that's great, but it should be about happiness in the end. Recently, I've been too focused on what is considered my the mainstream as success and lost track of happiness. I've been seeking happiness through educational success that could then be transferred to pride from career success. Problem is, my path over the past year has not been towards work that would bring happiness, it has been towards pride.
Time to recent the compass and get back on track!
Time to make my education and employment successes be tied to happiness. For me, this means no longer pursuing a career in corporate America. That path may work for many others, but for me, there is no happiness to be found in the corporate jungle, nor on the path leading to there. I've been cooped up in the house, banging away at the keyboard, communicating with people I've never met about corporate strategies and organizational structures. All in an effort to obtain, then prove I have obtained, knowledge that will make me a desirable employee in the corporate world. This week I realized two things.
1. Being a desirable employee in the corporate world will not make me happy.
2. Being on the path to becoming a desirable employee in the corporate world is not making me happy.
Soooo.... I'm not sure exactly where I will be going from here, but I will no longer be moving forward to achieve pride.
I will reset my compass on making a difference, being happy, creating happiness for others, and I will do my best at all I do, and be proud.
Friday, March 22, 2013
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Writer's block
I suppose technically to have true writer's block one would need be a writer. That is something I am not. But I do write, and I do hit blocks, so maybe I could be experiencing amateur writer's block. Well, I'm not really even an amateur writer. In my mind, a writer is an artist that uses words as their medium. The words pull you into the writer's creation and engage you in an emotional experience. I am not using words to create art, but rather to convey thoughts to friends, family, classmates and professors. Maybe if I were writing to engage strangers I wouldn't be stuck by this not-really-a-writer's block. I'm working on two papers for school. Both are boring. I understand the material thoroughly. I understand the assignment. I just can't seem to get my fingers to type the papers.
Being a student is a large part of my life. I love learning. I'm a rather good student and teacher. It's a part of my life where I'm very confident. So why this lack of enthusiasm towards these paper? I think the answer may be deeper than I would like. I don't think I am headed in the right direction with my studies. I love business, but I have no desire to work in a large corporation. I'm tired of studying the big four - Walmart, Google, Apple, Amazon. Sure, they are great stories, but they are not stories I want to be part of. I want to be part of something much smaller. Big, but small. I want to see the faces of the lives my work touches, not a stock report or company form letter thanking myself and hundreds of my closest co-workers for achieving some corporate goal. I love small business!!! I don't want to write about the big four because even though I understand the material, and can contemplate it systemically, I'm tired of spending my energy doing so.
I think it is time to go 'major hunting' again. No sense wasting any more time. I've learned my lesson. Now to go finish these papers. Maybe if I know this will be the last time I write about one of the big four, the task wont seem so daunting and I'll be able to break through this block.
Being a student is a large part of my life. I love learning. I'm a rather good student and teacher. It's a part of my life where I'm very confident. So why this lack of enthusiasm towards these paper? I think the answer may be deeper than I would like. I don't think I am headed in the right direction with my studies. I love business, but I have no desire to work in a large corporation. I'm tired of studying the big four - Walmart, Google, Apple, Amazon. Sure, they are great stories, but they are not stories I want to be part of. I want to be part of something much smaller. Big, but small. I want to see the faces of the lives my work touches, not a stock report or company form letter thanking myself and hundreds of my closest co-workers for achieving some corporate goal. I love small business!!! I don't want to write about the big four because even though I understand the material, and can contemplate it systemically, I'm tired of spending my energy doing so.
I think it is time to go 'major hunting' again. No sense wasting any more time. I've learned my lesson. Now to go finish these papers. Maybe if I know this will be the last time I write about one of the big four, the task wont seem so daunting and I'll be able to break through this block.
Thursday, March 7, 2013
More than six years later....
Well, it's been nearly six years since my last post - and that was just a test. Imagine my surprise to find my old blog still hanging around. I'm a little bummed that all my cool colors and formatting have been lost, but since I didn't know any of this blog still existed, I'm quick to get over it and be happy with what is here. In recent years, there has been an increasing number of comments made
regarding my positive outlook on life. Several have suggested I begin to
blog. Hmmm.... wonder if any of them know I use to blog years ago.
Brain Swirls was created to give me a place to record and share the random stuff that swirls around in my head. It's not meant to be a journal of what is going in my life, Facebook and Twitter keep family and friends updated on those things. Brain Swirls is about what's swirling around in my head. I selected the falling leaves background because the way in which a leaf falls to the ground reminds me a little of the thoughts swirling around in my mind. There is nothing but a leaf on a tree, then suddenly, for what often seems like no reason, it lets go and floats freely, swirly and flying, until it lands to rest on the ground. My hope is to capture that fall, and share the thoughts - swirls - with you as they fall.
So.... since I last maintained this blog a lot has changed. I've gone from a single mother living on Cape Cod, MA, to a wife living with her husband in south western PA. My son has grown into quite an impressive young man. He's on his own, doing quite well for a young man his age. During these years, I have earned a BS in Business from Penn State. My husband is finishing up working on his BA in Administration of Justice, and I've continued onto working towards an MBA in Social Media Marketing. We are rather low income, but we are happy. There's much more to share, but it will all come in time. I couldn't be more pleased with the direction life has taken over the past several years and I look forward to what is yet to come.
Thank you for stopping by.
Brain Swirls was created to give me a place to record and share the random stuff that swirls around in my head. It's not meant to be a journal of what is going in my life, Facebook and Twitter keep family and friends updated on those things. Brain Swirls is about what's swirling around in my head. I selected the falling leaves background because the way in which a leaf falls to the ground reminds me a little of the thoughts swirling around in my mind. There is nothing but a leaf on a tree, then suddenly, for what often seems like no reason, it lets go and floats freely, swirly and flying, until it lands to rest on the ground. My hope is to capture that fall, and share the thoughts - swirls - with you as they fall.
So.... since I last maintained this blog a lot has changed. I've gone from a single mother living on Cape Cod, MA, to a wife living with her husband in south western PA. My son has grown into quite an impressive young man. He's on his own, doing quite well for a young man his age. During these years, I have earned a BS in Business from Penn State. My husband is finishing up working on his BA in Administration of Justice, and I've continued onto working towards an MBA in Social Media Marketing. We are rather low income, but we are happy. There's much more to share, but it will all come in time. I couldn't be more pleased with the direction life has taken over the past several years and I look forward to what is yet to come.
Thank you for stopping by.
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